Hope

Hope is a spirit and will always be our spirit.
We need a hope to make something seems possible.
But there is always hope for those who never give up.
"Satisfaction lies in the effort; not in the attainment.Full effort is full victory."
I had never been hope so much on something until now,like i will fight for it even though i know i only have a chance like 0.1%.
I am trying to persuade my parents so they will let me go back to college and university.
I know for sure sometimes how hard it is to deal with our parents.
They had already rejected me last year,and this year i am gonna try it again,because i am suppose to be the one who will decided my future and not my parents.
"...life is an adventure,dare it..."
Mother Teresa said, "Do not allow yourself to be disheartened by any failure as long
as you have done your best."
We never lose chances to try again and again or when we are ready.
Same as when i hope to meet someone there i want to meet,even though i know we live
so far away but deep in my heart i know there is still a hope that one day we will meet.
I am still alive because i still have my hope here with me.
It is like a small fire that lives in my heart,as long as it never settled,my hope will always there.

Childhood

Recalling my childhood memories,should be something fun and delightful.
But what if those memories are ones that i don't want to remember.
What if rewinding to those memories will only draw pain.
But it's either sweet or bitter...that's memory.
I cannot remember any sweet moment from my childhood,
the only thing i will never forget is how depressed i was till i want to try
to kill myself and felt like living in this world is such a useless thing.
My mom had being unfair between my brother and i since my primary school.
She still had that habit from her last generation,like from her mom saying that
having a son was a lucky thing for a family and according to them,having a daughter
was useless.
Oneday...when i came back from school,i accidentally heard my mom was talking on phone
with her friend saying that she would prefer to have a son only.
and so do all my mom's sisters and brothers,they all had the same thought.
I got hit by my mom more than my brother,and she was always yell at me,and that made me
felt like she hate me.
We fought alot and sometimes ended up we didn't talk to each other for like weeks
or maybe one month,the longest i can remember.
All that situation made me stay away from my aunties and uncles and i felt kinda
hate them,because all they care was my brother only and always talked bad about me.
So as time goes by,i just spent my time alone mostly.
Only share with my "dear diary" and i did not feel like staying close with my family,
except my dad.
He is the only one that care with me so much and i love him.
Now that i had grown up...i learn something from my past.
never think a kid will not understand anything but the opposite,i will remember it always until forever.
It had been stuck in my head and i could not erase it.
If u have children,i hope u will love them no matter it's a boy or a girl.
What they will be in the future depend on how their parents teach them,and not
because of the gender.

Death by riches

At this era,we all know that we cannot live without money,it is the fact and it's true,but how if your riches cause you death? will u still want that kind of life? i don't think i want.We do need money so we can stay alive,but try to get a job that won't take a risk for your life.
Lately so many criminal happened at my country,peoples got killed and most of them are having jewellery business,a millionaire,so famous in selling gold barrier and diamonds and we all know how rich they are.They keep some in their house,so those were making other peoples envy by looking at it,which is their house maid.sometimes people are too greedy too,why don't they save it at Bank?
The maid might seems don't care at first,but somehow they could get influenced by other peoples around them like a satan/devil that keep whispering you and make you think of doing something bad for your own happiness.So when nobody's at home,their maid call their family to come and help her steal,but then when someone come they just directly killed them.
What a pity isn't it? some peoples said it's fate,but if u can choose,why don't u choose a better one?
According to me,we need to know some mafia or police,and security,that kind of life can run those business,not an ordinary people like that,it's too dangerous.
It's meaningless when u became a millionaire,you got a big house,nice car,but then you lost peoples that you love so much.It's become nothing and you might get stress.So what's the point?
So yeah...i rather choose a simple life,like running some small business,got a car,my own house,i can eat what i want to eat and live happily with my family.That's enough for me =].
what do you think? well hopefully god bless you all always =] c ya next time.....

ps : never trust anyone so much but yourself.

About China

As I remembered,China is a poor country at past,but i have to admit how China become a developed nation now.Their peoples are a hard work peoples and they do love their country,and yeah they got a good government and how their economic keep raising.This year China really make all peoples around the world open their eyes and know about China and feel proud of it and respect.It's the first time for Asia to be pick as Olympic 2008 place,I saw the opening at Beijing,8 august 2008 from my television,how they already prepared those performance,all of those great performance,haha can't even express it with words cause it's so amazing.As you can see from the image,They call it "Bird Nest",what a nice architect isn't it? and so does all the idea they had prepared during the day.I read newspaper this morning,and they discussed about the next country for the next Olympic,is London.Will they make it as great as China did? Let's wait and see.
I oftenly go to one of China big city,GuangZhou.One bad impression about china peoples is their restroom,i don't know about other city,but at GuangZhou city,sometimes it pissed me of,because most of their public restroom always smelly and stinks,that's make me feel so disappointed.It's like peoples who used don't even know how to flushed or keep it clean.What do you think about a Japanese restaurant,but the restroom got poop in the closet while no one flush it or clean it,i almost want to vomit and lost my mood to eat anymore.Like OMG is it that hard?
So do the way they talked to peoples,mostly with no manners,with a loud voice and rude even the girls,and they like to spit everywhere.The police too,they don't know how to respect foreigners,when we just want to ask about road or place,they ignored you and gave you a cruel face and didn't even answer you one word.
I hope they really can fix that and be better at future,or else that's gonna scared peoples away.Anyway that's it for today,thx for reading and have a nice day . =]

Kaskus

hello again....

If you are Indonesian people,you probably heard this words before "kaskus" it's not kakus anyway,haha different meaning.Anyway it's a name of a website,www.kaskus.us.It's Indonesian largest community,It's a cool website anyway,you really have to check it out.They talk about anything inside,some are education,some are funny news,it's really complete,but mostly they criticized about indonesian government yet the country =].
I had read some from this kaskus,they show some picture how beautiful the view of a country at night,like at Moscow,London,L.A,Paris,and others beautiful countries,and come to the last pic it's Indonesia,it's only show a blank page and it's black and they wrote over there "Ooopss sorry haven't pay the Electricity." It's because lately they always turn off electricity alternatively.

Some are a uniq post too,they talked about IT too,like mobile phone,woo woo check it out Nokia Aeon and Nokia 888 communicator,haha i am gonna buy it when it release.Well still got so many subjects,if u have time go check it out =].

That's it for today and have a nice day.Peace

Magician

Hi there...

Who never watch or know about magician,i guess almost all peoples know about magician,but do u guys believe about it? For me it is kinda like believe it or not.I never met them in real or saw them show the magic in front of my eyes,so it's really hard to believe,but it's like wow...if it's not real then why they become so famous.
For those who like to watch about magician,i bet you know this name,David Coverfield.How he could through that The Great Wall,Beijing.One more person i know is Chris Angel,he is so famour now,he can fly,he can make people sleep,he cut someone's body and split it,the half top side can walk..0_o and still so many things he can do.
What do u guys think about it? do u think it's amazing or do u think it's a fool thing to believe?
Will they ever use magic for crime or it's really just for fun?

that's it for today,post again later.peace